Last couple of days, my friend, Wnd gave me a call.
Asking about my health and my Iman.
I answered I’m just fine, like I usually do.
But, I felt something is not right.
From his intonation, I knew, there’s something else he wanted to ask.
But he kept it to himself and says Good Night.
Upon hearing the explanation from Mhuno, now I understand.
“…He didn’t give his answer yet, afraid that you might get hurt”
“..He called to discuss about it with you, but doesn’t has the courage to do so”
So, I’m taking this chance, to explain everything.
The fact that I’ve expected this thing will happen sooner or later, seriously.
The fact that I feel, deep inside my heart, he’s the perfect guy for her.
The fact that she’s just my high school crush, a tiny miny little crush, just like any other crushes, with no string attached. and I never do anything with that crush. Not like Mhuno and Na’am. As I’m too afraid to give hope and to get attached.
The fact that I can now put my mind at rest, when someone like him is by her side.
The fact that I’m feeling happy for him and wish him a blissful life ahead. Full stop.
Don’t feel sorry for me over such a trivial thing.
Make up your mind and do the istikharah.
You can choose not to accept the ‘offer’ but remember, “You’ll meet such a nice girl once in a blue, red, yellow moons...” - Mhuno
You’re always by my side when I’m feeling down. Now it’s the time for me to return the favor.
I've been asked with the same question by my mother,
But, I answered,”I’m not ready to give such commitment” over such a rare opportunity, a nice girl.
I don’t think the ‘offer’ will come again, and I just don’t want you to experience the same.
“A good Muslim is for a good Muslimah.” As for me, I don’t think I’m at his level, yet.
Just feeling like posting this even though I don’t think Wnd will have time to read about this. Maybe I’ll call him again after this. For those who are not related to the story, just wait for the invitation in two, three years… This is not a love story; it is a story called ‘Friendship’.